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| WOW!!!! this weekend has to be the best ever!!!!!! friday nite.....dun dun dun..... it was cinco de mayo and a friend, kim, had invited me to come and see her dance and support her at on the border. she also told me there were going to be margaritas and chips and salsa....HOW CAN I SAY NOOO TO MARGARITAS!???? I MEAN, C'MON!!! LOL. well....i told pris about it and she told adam about it soooo all three of us went up there togetha. after a couple of drinks, and kim started dancing, all three of us found ourselves on the dance floor.THEEEN, i had been talking to brandon and erin off and on and they ended up coming up there....and i shared my tickets w erin so she could get a lil somtin to drink PROPS UP!!! LOL then all of us got on the dance floor hahahaha.....OMG IT WAS GREAAAAT!!!!!! i hadnt had that much fun in a while....i wish on the border would do that more often hehe.
SAAAATURDAY comes along and it was such a lazy day for me cuz i was sooo tired, and then i got wired and brandon calls me and to pick a place to go out and eat, and i picked bennigans, soooooo b, erin, and moi go up there and then we went to BAN.....of course lol....and then pris and rachel call saying their going bowling SOOO WE GOOO TOOOO LOL......A LOT OF GOOD TIMES!!! thats all i got to say about that. i need to post some picts!!!! peace out. | | |
| i have taken the time of this month to get into shape. i had been needing to do more exercise so i could have more energy throughout the rest of the day. amazingly i have been able to achieve my goals every day of the week, i run 5 miles everyday plus i bike, and i walk with my dad in the evenings. i decided to push myself far to see how far i really could go, and i have proven to myself that i have a lot of capabilites when i put my mind into it. at the same time im playing indoor,intramural,outdoor,and sunday soccer to keep me running. it may sound like i have taken this to the extreme, but it is for me, for my benefit in the long run. my goal is to be able to run 10 miles by the beginning of june, and i am putting all of my heart, sweat, and pain into it, i will do whatever it takes to get me there.
these past few days i have come across a small obstacle within my health, i have a pain in my upper abdomen, and i am very unsure what the cause of it is. i tried to run yesterday and it kept hurting, i didnt think i could take the pain. but i am not a quitter, i have not come this far to even think about stopping what i have been working so hard in.....im not going to let it happen, i wont let it take over me. today i said to myself, to hell with it, im running, going up and down the hill was painful, but as soon as i got to the flat part of the roads, i was conquering everything, i felt i was invincible, i no longer felt weak.
i will keep running to achieve my goal, unless someone tells me that death is my only consequence, and until then, theres no way im stopping. im a very strong willed person, and i put my heart, mind, and soul when i have a goal to achieve. i don't let small things push me down, and much less keep me down. like one of my mottos says: NO PAIN, NO GAIN, and i don't just say it, i live it. | | |
| some friends have taken their own seperate ways as i have in the past, and i think thats great, we all have some time when we as individuals have something to get done and are able to seperate themselves from everything else to get it done.
but other friends have changed, and not for the best. the people they surround themselves with may be nice people but its like they have no values for themselves and sometimes for others...and why surround yourself by them!!!??? i get along with everyone even though lets say, they have small annoyances or differences, its not a big deal, we are still friends. but with this person, theres no way i can be friends with, my values are completely the opposite and im not going to become friends with them in any way....i am actually ashamed of even being acquainted with them....but i guess that happens sometimes in life. someone has always told me to show them who my friends are and they will tell me what kind of person i am, and i think that is completely true and ive seen it proven many times.
i dont have a problem with my friend being friends with the person i dislike, thats their problem, but i do have a problem when i see them change as an individual, absorbing bad habits and personality traits from them.....u know what that makes me do?? act different towards u because i dont know if im still accepted because of this change. i acknowledge changes for the good but i run the other way from changes that turn for the worst....but then again, this is just how i feel. i havent made my decision on whether or not i should say anything, because, im sure u will hear me, but im not sure u will listen and take it into consideration. im definitely not trying to be dramatic and cause a scene, this is just me reflecting on something i care about. im still here, watching it all happen. | | |
| im really not sure whether or not i should worry about this or to what degree i should worry but its really bothering me that im forgetting things. personally i have an awesome memory but lately when it comes to going to the grocery store, i forget some things that i was supposed to get. im becoming worse and worse at remembering names. i dont know if its because im not paying enough attention to the person thats telling me or bc i really am going crazy lol.....well shit to both.
so ive been wanting to work on writing my book and i have had this whole week as a great opportunity to do so, and have i worked on it??? NOOOOOOOOOOOO. at the moment there isn't much inspiration going on. i guess this spring break i really just didnt want to do anything and ive done such a great job at it too lol... so i was thinking that maybe u, brandon, can rub off some of that magic to me???LOL. i know that when i put my mind to it and decide to get it done, i will get it done, but it seems that im not at that point of being at the "being productive stage." i think that after spring break i may decide to take time to focus on it a little bit more. but if no one else minds, i will keep taking a mental break for now. | | |
| my mind has now been exposed to a new situation and a new experience. but this situation and experience is not lived by me, just witnessed. many people my age, i believe, are not aware of the astonishing events around the world, i feel incredibly ignorant, and blinded by our easy lives.
in the darfur region of sudan, a country in africa, many civilians each day face life and death situations between mass killings, rape, tortures, destruction of their villages, theft, and other means of humanitarian abuse by the janjaweed. the janjaweed are militias that are groups of band fighters backed by the Sudan goverment. the conflict in darfur started in feb 2003, and since then there have been:
more than 300,000 have died from the conflict along with diseases, nearly 3 million people have been affected by the crisis, 2.5 million civilians have been internally displaced, and 200,000 have seeked refuge in their neighboring country, Chad.
that is just a little something you can learn, think, research, and maybe even act upon. it is amazing how we dwell in a place like this and never have to experience anything like that.
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